I Hate Not Being Able To Cry

I want to cry. I feel like crying. But I can't. And that feeling is almost worse than not crying.

A person that I really care about just told me awful things that make my heart hurt. And then he had the audacity to tell me that he cares about me.

And the subject is always about sex. I hate it. He told me disgusting things and he knows that I hate stuff like that.

But the worse part is that I actually started the conversation this time. And I hate myself for it. I feel so dang guilty.

I want to cry. But I can't. And I hate it. I wish this stupid day had never happened.